Passionfruit. and Other Passions.

How do people find their passions? Is it through the process of continuously doing something that you enjoy? Or does it just suddenly come smack you in the face?

To be honest, the people that I envy most are those that know what their passions are and sacrifice everything in order to pursue these passions.

Personally, I don't believe I have found such a passion. I've always dabbled in things but never really fell in love with doing something enough to commit myself to it. I've danced, swam, done gymnastics, skateboarded, snowboarded, played the piano, trombone, and guitar, as well as sewed, cross-stitched, drew, and took photographs, and SOO many more things that I can't think of at the moment. But the thing is, I always stick with one thing up to a certain point before I get bored and move on to the next thing. Of course, I still do some of these things, but I would not say they are my passions.

Looking at other blogs (ie. KARLA'S CLOSET, authorblog, or Thumbelina), I see people who are able to convey their passions, in things such as art, writing, photography, and fashion. I envy them VERY much! Sometimes I wish someone would just come up to me and tell me what my passion is, just to make things easier. But of course, life does not work out that way. And I'm sure that one day I'll look back and be glad that I'd experienced so many things in order to find my passion in life.

But I guess I might be using this as an excuse for me not being able to truly excel in something? Perhaps I'm too scatter-brained, undecided, or maybe I'm just trying to be good at too many things at once? But whenever I see people who excel in doing something they love because they've dedicated their time and energy for their passions, I'm just like dayumm I wish I had that!

I've been thinking about what I want this blog to be do I want it to be a fashion blog? A photography blog? A narrative-type of blog?

Honestly, I have no clue. I'll probably end up doing a little bit of everything, since that's just what I do. But mostly, this blog is for my thoughts and inspirations, questions and answers, and other ideas that may be floating about in my head.

Anyways, talking about passions makes me think of passionfruit. I don't think I've ever tried passionfruit before, but from the looks of it, it kind of looks like a cross between a fig and a papaya, and I don't like either of those fruits very much...

Why are passionfruit called passionfruit anyways?? Hm..

Oh, and here's a song that I've been totally obsessed with the past couple days!


(Laugh Always!)


..what a BAD day~!

I received my grades for the past semester, and they were HORRIBLE...well they weren't horrible, but they were much worse than I had expected them to be and my grades from first semester were actually incredibly HORRIBLE so my cumulative average came out to be a very low B. :'(

I have no idea how I am going to be accepted into med school with these grades. I really have to step up my all aspects. But just the thought of having to do exceptionally well in everything I do for the next 3 years is absolutely TERRIFYING! It just puts so much pressure on every little thing I do, I don't know how I'm going to enjoy the next 3 years of uni...But then "you have to do things you don't enjoy in order to get to do things you do enjoy," as my mother would say.

Well, I really hope everyone else is having a better day than I am, because today was pretty depressing. PLUS I feel like I'm gaining weight, even though I'm eating less, AND I just finished washing like a MASSIVE mountain of dirty dishes, which didn't make me feel any better.

GAHH..this is a depressing post, I should just probably put you out of your misery and stop ranting.

Anyways, hope you laugh always! I know that most of you are aware that laughter makes your day a hella better, but supposedly, even faking laughter can make you feel up to 20% better on bad days. So, I'm thinking I'm gonna check it out, I'll let you know if it actually works in the next post! ;)

..My parents are going to think I'm a freak when they hear me going off like a hyena in my room by myself...but then, they already think I'm pretty strange :/ Lol

<3 Kim*R

Summer, Oh How I Love Summer~

Well...technically it's spring, but school's out for good 'til September...YESS!!

As of right now, my summer break is still on the drawing board. I want this summer to be productive and memorable, unlike many past summers, which mostly consisted of me lazing around in the sun all day (which is very enjoyable, but not very productive or memorable).

Other plans I have for this summer include:

- getting a job (part-time, volunteer, or possibly both, depending on what happens)
- finally getting my Bronze Cross and NLS
- getting my G2 driver's license
- like crazy - I have to make up for the shopping drought I had to endure during the school year
- losing the weight I gained over the past 8 months
- possibly join an Ultimate Frisbee league...
- learning how to play Surrender by Billy Talent on the guitar lol
- reviewing school work (fun, I know...)
- visit a foreign country...doesn't matter where, just not in Canada/U.S.!

Hopefully, I'll be able to fulfill all of these goals and plans this summer!

Anywhoo I gotta go be productive lol

Laugh Always!

- Kim*R